whatsup?!
interesting.

mr lee and i were analysing what sorta woman suit my kor.
mr lee’s view – soft yet tough, must be smart enough to control my kor and smart enough to act dumb.

my reply – and to play the victim once awhile, so tat my bro can rescue her. thats what all man needed ! haha ! actually that the feelin YOU gave me when i first know you ! you wanna ‘save’ me, izzit?! actually i dont even noe whether i need rescuing?!

we both laughed.
laughter aside.

generally speaking, i guess its true.
i dont want to be stronger or tougher den my man, that’s his job.
but i cant be weak all the time either, he cant be a everyday hero – that tiring.
i cant be more capable den him, it gotta put him down – ego’s tinky.

as a smart woman, we do need to act dumb once awhile to make our man feel good. life is abt comprising !

well, it easier say den done. but generally speaking – i’m good at this. coz i am dumb ! what do you expect? i could write sucha entry, what make you think i’m a smart woman.
*wink
– G

the old me: whenever i’m upset abt something.
i will raise it up immediately. we have an issue, i’m unhappy, i’m piss off – lets talk things out. right here, right now.

the new me: whenever i’m upset abt something.
i choose to keep quiet, even though i might have a bunch of of bitchy comments roamin in my head. i reckon its better, i dont wish to say anything to destroy the relationship. you can apologize, buy flowers,  go the extra mile but words spoken cant be retrieve.  i refuse to adopt the an-eye-for-an-eye-method, expect the other person to put himself or herself in my shoes. i choose time out and think abt it, work on best solution, but eventually i will talk abt it.

pple are super impressed at my ability to keep things inside until i figure out my next move. its not a necessity skill but i seen the benefits in doing so.

this is the mature me talking. the immature me dumbly choose inappropriate moments to talk things out .. aka monday morning. haha ! okie, i will work on choosing the right moment, right methods, right words for the right pple. arent i a right person? :p

G.

‘girly yet with a masuline easiness’ – jen

woah. tats how she describe me.
mmm.
okie, agreed with her.
i’m not a girlie-girl.

i cry easily (kor cant stand that!)
i love soft toys, i love cute stuff but i dont go crazy over them.
i cant fix the lamp but i can give it a shot sorta person.
i cant carry heavy stuff but i can carry the small plastic bag.
you wont use sweet to describe me but you will use sweet to to describe my actions.
i have lotsa tots but you can read me like an open book.
i’m hardworkin in school but i only own a pen.
i own several bags but none have umbrella in them.
i love my nails but i bite them.
i need someone to dote on me yet i dont wanna rely on a man. keke !
here’s the last trait – i’m not a goody two shoes but you wont use bad girl to define me. haha !

sound like one /confused / complicated girl.
well, its a girls tink.
go figure. keke !

– G

ha!
other den the usual having someone to talk too blah blah blah.

having a twins means you get to pretend = pretend to be her.

on the train the other day and i saw a old friend.
my tots: shld i smile? shld i go over and do my friendly act? but will i ever talk to him again even if we exchange contact? do i really care what he’s be doin for the past 10years? i’m sure he dont give a damn abt my life either.. so…

conclusion: okie, time to pretend i’m minhui.
the old friend glance my way a few times and i just pretend pretend, gave him the ‘do-i-know-you-look?’

why am i like that?  you ask the right qn.
the reasoning: please read the above paragraph again. u will find the reason.

funny mr lee. he felt tat having a twins mean double exposure in school. pple sees more of me den they see other invidual person.
love his lame description.
– G

kor: mei. what are you doing?

me: studying.
(pretty obvious. pen in left hand, textbook on my lap, air-con on)

kor: let’s tok meh.
me: okie, i shall take 5. (he musta be bored..i shall entertain him)

kor: what will you do if you have 20k? 10k i will go NY, 10k i will buy camera stuff.
me: buy a degree.

*roll eyes

kor: but ur fake degree wont last. pple will find out.
me; yeap.

*giggle

hmm.. finally had the time to think abt it. 20k. what will you do with that amt of monies?

i’m gotta invest part of it, monies to generate more monies.
i’m gotta bring my family for a trip.
i’m gotta donate – sound like answerin ms world pageant ! haha ! but i will at least donate to the mrt blind lady.
i’m gotta change all the balance monies into $10 notes and slp on it. envy me!

nitey nite.

G.

this has been a place to unburden my tots.
so, yeap. its time to state my ‘stand’ 🙂

no relationship.

yeap, coming from me – its a statement.
jen goes  ‘another surprise fact abt you.. you dont want to be in a relationship? my dear friend you..’
wahaha, she understand me well.

its a chara-tinky here. i do need someone. i’m not all gung-ho and self-declare independent sorta girl *laughin at myself
i’m a softie by nature yet tough when the situation calls for it.
but most would declare me as xiao-nu-ren. duh.

maybe its nice to simply date and know pple.

two reasons:
1) i like to focus on myself, studies, work, family & friends. (not in order!)

for myself, i don’t really need a break per se but it will be good to take a break.
yeap, as a woman, i’m worried. i’m gotta be 28 in a few mths time yet a part of me wants to njoy the ‘freedom’ for awhile. and i have adopt the good-if-there-is-someone-okie-if-there-isnt. life is what you made of it.. haha ! i’m gotta type something here – you don’t need to rely on a man to bring you happiness. see, it a internal struggle for me being soft & strong all at the same time. interrupt by Jen – you just need someone who slay dragons. full stop. haha !

2)  i actually feel stress out and guilty if someone gave me lotsa attention and i cant ‘return’ the same amt of attention… i realised attention gradually leads to pressure which leads to me grabbin my runnin shoes. haha !
actually, the sentence goes – attention – pressure – commitment – responsiblities

no, that not what i wanted at the moment. i guess, the whole idea is to take it slow. as friends – sure. i’m open for dinner, chit-chat, outing, etc etc i’m fine. but pls, no 10 sms per day. *beep, running shoes alert ! haha !

well, this is just my tots. at least for now.
i hv no idea what the future gotta be, i don’t own a crystal ball and my nix name isnt witch.
whatever it is, be happy.

note: out of my 4 rules – be happy. it the most impt of all, isnt? that’s what everyone wanted ultimately – to lead a happy and fulfilling life.

this is probably the reason why i state earlier that i am simply contented with my life now.

thank you for reading. hope you, like me, experience some peace after this entry.

G.

this theory have be seriously challenge.

challenger: mr lee

according to groove – experience life! life is a continuous adventure ! go !  just do it ! coz you only live once !

according to mr lee – you only live once, donest mean you kill yourself! you only live once ! you’re dead, end of adventure.

the debate remains.

i wanna explain my point! its my blog, i get to say haha !

groove felt that – we limit ourselves. i am like that, accept it. my thinkin is like that, accept that. its not wrong but maybe its okie to do things differently.
the reasoning behind – why not?! why be stubborn and miss out the fun/ interesting things in life? relax lah, i’m not askin you to really get yourself kill. i’m just sayin openin up your mind to new tots / new ideas / new experience. flexibility, woah like supply chain mgmt ! 🙂

i think, this is the main reason why pple are constanly amazed at my thinking.

anyway.. my point? dont look back your life in regret. do what you have to do, or rather, do what you wanna do.. coz you only live once!

– G

jie made this for us. cant rem the fancy-ful name. too sour-ish for my taste bud though. yeap, this is how my week goes. mummy wash up the dishes for me. nice! daddy volunteer to fetch me home after school. i decline his offer, he need to rest as well, beside the train is just a hop, skip and jump away. breakfast. coffee and biscuit brought to me – from dad. so sweet.one of the meal. have fun while studying ! saw this on my bed – from jie. breakfast brought to me (again) from dad. notice the panadol? yeap, running nose from fri – sun. sometink to do with waking at 6.30am.. i tink this is dinner/ supper. after awhile, my days are mixed up..
coffee for myself. muffin from jie. kor decided to pamper us and order mcd’s breakfast for everyone. nice ! ‘hotcakes and you can score better result’
thank you to my family & jen for being so supportive.
G.

> clearing my draft entry <

day 1 -the excited day
jo noe i’m goin to sch. so sweet of her to pass me some kit-kat & time-out. ‘can eat in class lah’ awww..

met a girl at psb’s popular. make friends.
i guess, i dont really feel tat shy toking to strangers. the mentality being we’re both here to learn. of coz, its help she’s a girl & she look like a nice person. hehe ! this is called ‘choosing your friend wisely’ haha !

our team-mates were assigned by the school, so, we just had to find them. god, i’m the oldest in my gp ! 🙂

first day in class – caught myself day-dreaming away.. opps.

day 2 – student huang
get into the groove of studying -quiz -studying -quiz routine.

day 3 – help needed!
school school school

day 4 – the just kill me.
pm leave.. just to study, cant believe i did that ! not my style of studying.. well, you gotta do what you gotta do.

came home after school. late dinner/supper with kor & suddenly he mention abt F1. what F1? when? surprised that its this weekend. i seriously have no idea. i’m not into cars & stuff, but its just goes to show – i be living in a psb cave ! haha !
i’m sorry, everything else take a backseat this week.

day 5 – the big day
whacked out. two quizes today. i was in lala land at 9.30pm.
yes. me. 9.30pm. slp.
(my standard bedtime is 1am..)

coffee for dinner day 1 – day 5
wasnt hungry.. !

day 6 – the sunday
sun class. yeap, i was up at 6.30am studying. ugh ! *groan. who wake up on sun at 6.30am to study?? okie, me and 44 of my classmates. keke !

school’s out. at least for a week.

i need tv, slp, proper meal, me-time, talk time, reading books, no more time invasion by psb. yeap !
G.

god, i miss blogging no, i miss whining ! 🙂
okie ! this week is all about school.
so, i shall do a couple of blogs on this.

www.psb-academy.edu.sg/academic-programme/detail/19/530/Bachelor-of-Commerce-Supply-Chain-Management-/

here the basic:
16 modules.
i’m only doing 8 modules, thanks to my dip in mktg and advanced dip in supply chain mgmt
yeap, i’m lucky.
oh, i’m only taking 1 module this sem (instead of 2) work commitment.

the timetable:
lesson for a week with wollongong lecturer, followed by once a week with local lecturer.

exam in 3 mths time.

the challenge:
self – study follow by quiz. this is tough.
today was the last quiz.. yeap, sun. poor me.

the outcome:
sick. haha !
i can cope with the limited slp but not the study stress + limited slp. average 5-6 hrs of slp, if this goes on.. i will be dead by 28! haha
limiting the amt of time pple tok to me. you only got 15mins to tok. haha ! no choice, i’m sorry.