i’m gotta break this into several parts:

Part 1: crybaby
kor called me that smts.

i cry when i’m in pain, i cry when i’m upset, i cry when i’m frustrated. haha !

Part 2: refuse to cry
i can tell u too when i dont cry.

and this kind of refusal to cry is heartbreaking to others –
when i am sad, when i know that crying doesnt helps.

i dislike crying, when i know it gotta make me look weak or to gain sympathy. oh pls, i take gamemanship anyday, just dont give me the ‘dear-are-you-okie-look’ it tiring for me to assured you i am fine.

Part 3: cry when you’re touched.
you know recently i read this ‘ tentative contact. believed not in divine salvation but in the proposition tat we poor mortals are fully capable of savin ourselves, if conditions and inclinations are right, and the evidence of this potential is found in the smallest of gestures’

i agreed. sometimes it d smallest of gestures that touched me. just like the simple coffee + biscuit my dad made for me at 6.30am.

part 4: summary
tears are a form of expressing your emotion. just like laughter.
but there’s where the similarities end.
tears go deeper, something that you cried abt, sad or happiness – i think are things that you remember for a long time. whatever it is, the person or occasion matters to generate tears, probably the reason why i dislike when others cry for me.

do i remember my last tears?
no.
coz i dont believe in keeping negative memories.
take what’s good with you, look back in laughter and not in pain.

part 4(A): revised summary
laughter is equally impt. stupid things that you did, silly mistakes, dumbo error, whether it laughin at a joke, at yourself, it pulls you closer to the other party.

do i remember my last laugh?
yes.
just. over a bag of cheezels with jie / kor
teasing each other, stupid jokes, laughed abt life.

G.