i miss them.
home isnt the same without them !
hope they had lotsa fun in china / hk 🙂

groove miss her parents.

she is evil stepmother and i am fairy godmother.

we are as different as day and night.

yet we work, as friends.

i like it that she always at my side, i like it that she will drop everything if i need her, i like it that she look after my back, i like knowing that she wont fail me, i like it that i can express my tots, run my theory, do stupid things with her and she wont ‘judge’ me.

i hope, you, like me, had a friend.

ying.

hello world.ta-dah. hug?hey you !merry christmas folks.

find them @ marina square john little.

groove.

loved this acoustic version.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI4JLa0hbUw

thank you pumpkin for the virtual fireflies 🙂

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jmhpy8c8hbw

this appeared @ 2012 credits. noticed it. loved it.

there’s the world renowned london bridge and there’s ‘the bridge’ at my area.

its named the bridge.

it have everything one could possibly needs:
atms. checked.
bread shop. checked.
cheap chix rice (think $1.50) checked
newspaper cum snacks. checked.
jollibean. checked.
bubble tea. checked.
mrt. checked. checked.

the newbie..

*drum roll

clinic !

yeap ! no more dragging my sorry self to pioneer mall. now, i have a clinic 3 steps (okie, maybe a hundred) away from home. plus, it house a female doc. nothing against male doc, in fact my family doc is one of the male species but i just felt more comfortable in the hands of a woman. 🙂

groove & her bridge.

fries with pepper?
ah !! whats wrong ?
chilli is fine, mayonnaise is pampering, pepper is just plain weird. keke !
okie, i had my hashbrown with chilli. 🙂

strange and the strang-er.

came online to clear some emails.

decided to swing by and write a couple of sentences.

started with sore throat (okie aldy!) but end up with running nose & fever.

haha my parents are out of town and kor have the right to decide whether i can go out. ‘NO, u need to stay home and rest’ i explained, i need to see another doc.

okie, gtg. meds and sleep awaits.

sick groove

at the clinic.

waiting for my meds and suddenly noticed an old lady crying to the nurse. the nurse comforting her. sorry, i cant help but listened. i cant shut off my ears can i?

the old lady’s son commit suicide. i’m not too sure of the reasons.

poor old lady.
i guess there’s one of the worse thing that could happen – outlive your own son. i dont agreed on suicide, how could you simply end your own life and expect your family to clean up the mess you left behind.  i understand how hard life could be sometimes yet i felt that there isnt any unsolve-able problem. live your life, dont let life defeat you.

i believe the old lady will be fine. its just a moment thing. she just gotta keep living, for her daughter in law and her grandchild.

poor nurse.
suddenly strike me how tough her job was. it goes beyond just matchin the correct meds for the patients. its abt showing care and concern to total strangers.

the nurse felt guilty for making me wait. i noticed the apologetic look she threw me. i gave her a ‘its-okie-i-understand’ look.

poor me.
yeap, despite my kind understanding. i really wanted to collect my meds, go home and put myself to slp. that being said, i will wait, giving the old lady as much as time she needs. what a little illness compare to her grief. i will be fine tomorrow, but the old lady gotta need more time den me.

poor thing.
okie, i need to slp.

sick-y groove.

i seen myself displaying a brave front to others (do i?) but i’m not exactly fearless. these are mine.

– thunder. i dont get it. but yes, thunder do frightened me. i am fine if there’s someone with me, but not when i am alone. it scared the hell out of me. 🙂

– rubber band. if someone wanted to ‘shoot’ me with it. i’ll get all work up. *shrug

– dandelion fluffs. seriously. as pretty as they are, they creep me out. gave me goosebumps. weird. i know.

– cockroach. as in cockroach. ahh ! those little fellows will usually land on my feet causing me to do a cockroach dance.

– cockroach. as in guys, with bad behavior. i cant think of a better name for ppl in this category, just started callin them ‘cockroach’

– butterflies. read h-e-l-p. 08th nov.

– sore throat. i dont exactly fear this. but yeap, it qualify as one of my ‘fear’ sorta. i totally dislike sore throat. make me cranky. consider yourself lucky if i managed to talk to you while nursing a sore throat.

boo !

reluctant to blog abt this. izzit wise for me to blog abt it?
maybe.. yes.
bothered and still bothering me.

the below entry is for me, myself and i.
have i forgive myself? no. not really.
am i being over-responsible? yes.
am i bo liao? superbly yes.

it have been 2 years, or izzit 3.

a close friend of mine gotta pregnant.
im one of those few selective pple who knows abt it.

she seek for my advise, being the older between us. i tried to give her the right advise, which is to keep the baby. i am very sure, she will regret if she opt for abortion. i don’t want that.

(pls note, i never gotta pregnant lah. logically thinkin, you will regret losing the baby. think abt it – how often you hear pple goes, i am so glad i had abortion ! )

back to her story:
i even went as far as begging her to keep the baby, offered to bring up her baby, until she is ready to have the baby back.

*laugh at the absurdity

i was only 25 den. what do i know abt baby?! i wasn’t married, its not my baby, she’s not even a relative! yet it make prefect sense. i am willing to go that far, so that she don’t live in regret.. coz as tiny as it is, it’s a life. it is my responsibilities to change her mind, most importantly, she places her trust and judgment in me.

i failed.

the baby is gone.
a piece of her is gone.
a little piece of me is gone.

each december, i will asked myself ‘minying, why didn’t you try harder to fight for the baby’s life?’

but, what else could i do..?
.. so much more.

girl, if you are reading. i am sorry. for letting you down. *hug and take care.

ying.