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Lastborns are friendly, creative individuals who love challenging the status quo. They’re more adventurous than their siblings and are the risk-taker in the family, although they also tend to be needy at times.
Twins have a strong bond and therefore always think of the other before making a decision. Their thoughtful nature makes them considerate romantic partners.
keke !
beautiful isnt?
ahhhh ! i wanted to insert a butterfly image here but realised i cant. shit, even seeing them in images remind me of the horrifying walk in the park yesterday.
*terrified
goodness ! i really dislike facing my fear. i mean, who does?! not my idea of fun!
facing d door. knowing what’s in store for me, knowing that i will made it out in one piece is still not a good reason for me to go through with it. i just dont like putting myself in sucha situation. as harmless and pretty as they are, i just cant get over the fact that the butterflies are… there.
how do i explain this fear of butterfly?
i just cant be in the same room as they are. freak me out – big time.
butterflies have the ability to reduce a normal person into a whining, sticking and needy girl. for someone who dont perspire much – butterflies have the ability to make me perspire ALOT.
and the reason for the fear – UNKNOWN.
*shrug
hmm.. more often den not, there’s no reason to be afraid of something.
and i think this is a perfectly acceptable fear, no reasons for me to get rid of.
i’ll live with it. 🙂
no ! i’m not suicidal.
at warehouse today, packing some stuff and oppps, accidentally penknife myself. some blood. 🙁
my girls got freaked out. ahhh.. nice. having pple fussing over me.
my w/h guy went out immediately to fetch the ‘doc’ which is my neighbor. doc came with a first aid box and i goes ‘woah, house visit by ‘doc’ haha !
i’m okie, only took a plaster from ‘doc’ and back to work.
we laughed our head off by the whole episode.
look like i’m trying to kill myself, no?!
keke
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what a ‘bloody’ day !
packing stock and realised – Ooo.. my fingernail bleed. okie, i admit, coz i bite my nails..
went to the toilet to clean the wound and i got scared.
called pumpkin. thinkin that i wont be scare with someone toking to me.
and suddenly the toilet door slam shut !
*screamed and ran out of the toilet.
laugh, and laugh, and laugh. haha !
cant believe i did all of that :
1) bite my nails.
2) bleed.
3) scare myself silly with my over-imagination.
clumsy groove.
the food.
the pork belly is really good. exp but worth every cents. 
the aftermath. by kor / jie / jen 
silly me. i forgot all abt the mushrooms !
we finished eating and i goes ‘oh, i got mushrooms in my bag!’
haha
3 reasons:
– to get me off her back – matter of fact.
– to try doing what i’ve be saying / hoping/ encouraging – move on.
– to make me less worried abt her – putting it nicely.
ah.
i like the second reason best.
i’m happy that she’s happy.
🙂
jen had fun..telling me abt all duck’s tongue and duck’s feet she ate in china.
ahhh !!
duck !!
gross-ed !!
run !!
haha groove
i need to whine.
first think first – i was wearing a sorta low-cut dress.
but there’s wasn’t the point.
in the lift – me and another man.
the man stare at me – openly
i turned my back – on him.
the man walk in front of me and kept – staring.
duh. what do you want me to do? come out with a smart-alec remark?
what if he reply me? what am i gotta do?
god, suddenly, i felt so.. so.. weak and vulnerable. traits that i totally dislike. 🙁
i didnt say anything.
homed. upset.
mostly, i am upset at myself.
why didnt i stood up for myself?
hmpf.
okie lah, no point being upset at myself.
it’s over.
live and learn.
this came up.
in a totally unexpected manner.
it was part of a conversation.
which leads to some tots… which gradually leads to a blog entry, so typical of me ! haha !
guy told me – she (she = my friend) is seeking for something.
and it make me goes – arent we all?
and make me wondered – what is guy seeking for?
what abt ME den – what am i seeking for?
do you know WHAT are you seeking for…?
… are you seeking for anything?
there gotta be smt worth seeking for, what izzit?
– love, family, friendship, values, appreciation, to be better person…
hmm..
i don’t have a point here but i do know, you gotta noe what you are lookin for in order to attain it and therefore received some sorta happiness / sense of achievement from it.
don’t go lookin for what isnt there or simply going around in circles.
hmm.. rephrase..
i guess, what i want to say is – you could have what others have but still remain a unhappy little soul or i shld write, still felt empty unless you noe what do you want in the first place.
have i lost you? i lost myself. haha !
the BIG question?
what abt me?
what am i lookin for?
maybe all i wanted is for things to remain the way it is.
maybe i’m not seeking for anything coz i aldy have everything ! pumpkin, sunshine and all. 🙂
life – is- full – groove
prideful?
like i mentioned – not a word i will pick for myself.
but it was used to described me.
what exactly did i said?
i dislike being needy, the feelin of i-gotta-rely-on-someone when i am sad.
i dont want that, i dont need that.
i have myself & it is good enough.
prideful?
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be what others expect you to be or i had it in me from the beginning?
(don’t make me into someone i’m not?)
let’s use moi as an example.
strong. most pple say that i am a strong girl, mentally lah.
am i really strong coz of my actions, my tots?
or
i am strong coz they expect me to be strong.
so, yeap, okie, i’ll be strong as per expectation?
i’ll be what you want me to be sorta theory.
i could never tell the difference.
maybe being strong is a combination of both factors.
i am indeed a tough cookie by nature AND when others set an expectation for me, i’ll hit the expectation.
prideful?
not all my entrys have a point. live a little ! 🙂 🙂