emailed jen & i mentioned:
you know, i cant wait to write my summary blog entry for 2009. i have titled it: lucky all year round, it’s a blank entry…yeap. its gotta be a long, fun & exciting entry !
– 27th Oct 2009

< 2-0-0-9 >
eventful but exciting year, where the worst & the best happened.
its a year where i live for myself, where i seen myself grow, the year which i will always look back in fond memories, laughter & disbelief ! 😉

gotta say this to myself – minying, i am proud of you.
*pat on the back.

wiser, smarter, secure-r, funnier, definitely happier.

whatsup?!

exterior:
gain some weight this year.. long hair. haha
i wore lotsa shorts, shirts, shoes, ties. 🙂
i didn’t grow taller. hehee but you could practically smell happy off me.

interior:
later.

moments:
= family trip
ingredients of a good times with my loved ones.
phenomenally great ! 🙂

= batam trip – with jen.
star gazing, at the beach, soft music, with my dear bff. it was one of my best night with her.

= hk trip – with two of my closest friend – jen & zz (plus ah-boy)
awesome – the peak, the food, zz anxious over me, disneyland.
the hug from me to jen after the fireworks.
‘girl, thank you for makin my dream come true!’ ( we cried. haha !)

= back to school.
orhh.
sitting in class, smiling to myself.
its an achievement.
lesson learn – never say never.. see, i’m studying. haha!

= countless dinner/ laughter / chats / outings i had with my family & lotsa dear friends.

gains:
= hminying.com
absolutely adored this blog. its so me, through and through.

= guy.
haha ! why did i class him under gains?
guy is indeed one of the best thing that happened to me this year.
(lotsa ppl still find us incredibly-close!)

the world might change, pple might change, i might change but he wont. his values / righteous are so deeply rooted into him.. its a comfort to me. we all need stability in life. and yes, it could be translated into i-have-lotsa expectation-of him-too. haha!

‘he said words that at the time were only words, not the life lessons that’ve since exploded into” – extracted from my book.

i tot of guy immediately. he’s the one who taught me lessons after lessons and i have thank him countless times.. he replied me once: watup? u thank me all the time, sound as if i saved ur life. no, my dear you didn’t save my life but i definitely owe you. i bow before his power to transform mere words into respect. when it comes to respect, he hold the #1 spot.

thank you my dear for the lessons you taught me, the firsts you gave me, the listenin-whiny ear, the sound advises.. thank you for being the strong / brave one between us.

last, thank you for seeing something in me.

we are both blessed to have each other ! *awww..

= jen.
‘friends are like teabag, you never know how strong they are, until you dip them in hot water’ – book

i’m writing her last.. simply because she meant the most to me. (next to my family)

she have always be with me, through thick and thin.
eight years of friendship, endless companion, endless phone call (we love M1) i still text her every morning..haha !

she made me laugh. i think its through her that i learn to laugh. when life sucks, when shit happens, laughter helps.

im weak, she’s strong. smts i’m strong and she’s weak.

the sweetest thing she said to me was ‘let me know if you need me. i can take a taxi over’ it was close to 3am. it was at that moment that i knew, i could count on her anytime, anything. she will drop what she doin at a moments notice & come to my aid.
that’s friendship for you.

i love the way i could talk to her abt anything under the sky. smts i make her speechless, smts i’m mischief.. whatever it is, i wanted to stand on the same side as her.

smts a mere sentence from her will turn me all mushy and teary.
‘whether it is a right or wrong decision, i am always on your side & still around’

i love having someone in my corner. always.

thank you my dear girl for sticking around !

= friends.
thank you.

= family.
for always being there for me.
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*woah, this is the hardest part.. ! the number of pause / smile..
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= me.
gottta state this, again.
if i had the ability to change myself, i hope you have the ability to accept me, for who i am today. dont live in my shadow. 😉

came across this ‘as a woman of science, i’ve always believed that we have the power to shape our own lives. but there’s a big part of me that also thinks things happen for a reason.. start over..’
i’ma firm believer that things happened for a reason and that reason gave me the ability / strength to shape my present & future.

i’m gotta admit to a bad start of the year. it wasnt easy to leave what i know and venture into something new. i was afraid of not being the norm, i was afraid of how pple look at me, i was afraid of the unknown. i am afraid. but, being afraid taught me to be brave. haha musta awed lotsa pple with this new found strength.

the rest of the year have since exploded into a exciting & superbly nice year. mostly through my own effort (life-is-what-you-made-of-it-theory) as well as the ppl in my life.

im lucky to have my family and friends to keep me on track, showin me & remindin me of who i am at heart.

i have be brave, daring, courageous, flexible (may i add stupid?) silly, fun & open to experiences (aka yes-girl !)

i have fulfilled so many ‘always-wanted’
you might not notice but i always take a moment – thank my lucky star and whoever was with me. *sweet sigh.

i’ve done lotsa stuff that i would never see myself doing it.
smts i’m right, smts i’m wrong, smts i’m stupid, smts i’m wise.
more hits den miss.. i hope keke !

rethink. reinvent. remodel.
checked. checked. checked.

re-read the article at my blog & came across this sentence –
‘good person as someone who is always striving to be good and do the right’

i’m not a perfect person.. but..
..  all i wanted is to be a good person.

nobody is. perfect.

i still hv alot to learn in life, outta life, how to be a better person.. i am the few lucky souls who’s happy with life, who have everything one could possibly needs and that pple, is the way to life.

ups & downs. yet, i named it the best year of my life.

let’s bid goodbye to twenty-o-nine.
thank you everyone for being a part of my life.
stick around and watch me grow.

2010 is gotta be an exciting year, one which i hardly dare to make plans, i rather take what life throws at me. thats the laid plan. 🙂

last –
a new year, same resolution – to be a better groove-y person.
family, jen, friends, study.

join me next year !

who am i?
yours, groove.
*little bow

interesting.

i noe he’s a smarty pants but walking food encyclopedia?!

dinner.

pumpkin mentioned, oh this is good for.. oh this is good for..

the fourth time.
i stopped him.

can i blog abt you?
how could someone noe all abt food & their function / purposes. like salmon contains omega 3 (good for the brain) i dunno. either h’s a hard-core health freak or i simply dont give a damn abt what i put inside my mouth. hehe !

he mentioned abt me being a food junkie.
i counter with a ‘are you sure u can stand someone like that?’

my theory. (explained to pumpkin)

u can eat healthy, be healthy but more often den not u still end up with cancer. no? its always the ‘bad’ pple who live longer. bad is define as abuser etc etc someone who smoke & drink, lead super unhealthy lifestyle but these ppl dont die young.

that’s life.

anyway. what a wizard.
strange skill though.

– G

groove:: bomb technician says:
u saw the mug on the coffee table?
1 is for u
hehe

Hamstery says:
i saw it. heheh..  
u just love to buy mug right?

groove:: bomb technician says:
oh.
shut up

Hamstery says:
wauhahaha..

< earlier in the day >
ikea.

me: can i buy mugs?
jen: NO!
me: but i like it, and its only 95cents
jen: no.
i whine abt pple using my mugs in office. i whine abt i love mugs. whine whine whine.

she say okie !
*grab one!

and she goes, maybe u shld get one for jie.
*off i go & grab another mug !

came back and she goes ‘i was only jokin..but u dash off.. ‘

oh?!
*grin

recent discovery.

i have lotsa expectations on guy.
hope that he wont fail me, ever.
i need that little hope / faith in human. and i found it in him. no room for mistakes !

haha ! of coz. he’s aware of the expectations i set on him. stress hor?! yet, somehow, he’s the only one who i think will come through and live up to expectation.

i always whine abt him havin expectations of me, zero mistakes. i musta logical, i musta smart, musta wise, musta musta musta..smts, i felt that sorta pressure from him.

yet i found myself havin the same set of expectations towards him. he musta logical, he musta wise, he musta knowledge-able, musta musta musta..
its unfair. my standard towards him are way higher den the standard he have of me. hehe !
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i have endless whys.. regardin r/s, faith, love, human. i realise with a little shock today that guy is the one who is capable of providing satisfactory answers, or rather he bothers to sit down, listen and answer. and well, i’m not shy to ask qns !

thank you master lee !

– your #1 student huang.
=)

this is all the faith you need.

‘you didnt have enough faith,’ Jesus told them. ‘i assure you, even if you had faith as small as a mustard seed you could say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there,’ and it would move. notink would be impossible’

from jie to me.

– G

( rare entry )
perhaps someone could provide some answer (guy !)
– yes he did. it nice throwing qns at him & getting answer.
answers i been seekin for.

perhaps, writing simply make me feel better.

basic background.
man A attached with woman A.
man A cheat on woman A, with woman B.
woman A dump man A.
man A + woman B = an item.

my tots:
let me state this – its none of my biz.

i’m just puzzled & amazed by humans.
smts, i felt.. i could learn so much stuff but there’s simply no good reasons for the things we (humans) do..and it make me wondered ‘why play nice’ shit happens to nice pple.

life.. humans are complex.

questions:
how others look at her? how could woman B live with herself?
its beyond my understanding.

most impt, how could woman B feel secure with man A. havent woman B heard? things always come a full circle. i feel sorry for woman B. the starting of the r/s is aldy so wrong, how could you right things out.

guy’s input.
raise my qns to guy. he listened and gave me a damn good answer – desire.

woman B desire to be with man A goes beyond all moral issue. the desire are greater den how others look at her, how she look at herself.

guy – let me write out a summary & my tots okie?

summary / conclusion /tots.
guy mentioned abt integrity too. you can be emotional-weak (like me !) you can be tempted (like some man) but your integrity is what separate man from cockroaches or woman from witches.

he is right. its a matter of acceptance for me.
learn to accept there are pple like woman b & yeap, let go of the issue. i will be happy. i told guy, i will.. just a matter of time.

base on my own vaules / beliefs, i’ve condemned her action. yes, she might have her reasons, her background, her influences but some things to me.. its simply black & white. there’s no grey area to speak of. its wrong, its wrong. i believe in second chances (i can hear guy goes ‘yar yar’ ) but not when the right / wrong is crystal clear. second chance theory went out of the window.

i accepted guy reason – desire.
but its beyond my understanding.

perhaps guy is right, when i find myself in the same situation, i might do likewise. trash all integrity / moral and simply follow my heart. yet, i know, i cant. i wont. like guy said, that will be the first step. if you can stamp your own approval, what’s next? the de-value oneself process will continue and you will stoop at nothing for that moment of desire.

next.
he comment – im only lookin for faithfulness / trust / security in a man. what abt other stuff? like responsible? caring? the list goes on..

guy, the rest of the stuff are impt to me but those always come first.

last.
guy told me smt which i agreed – smts he wondered why think so much? do like everyone else, hv fun & njoy life. but that will snowball problems to later part of life.

*pause.

of coz, by the time you read this. this topic no longer bothers me.
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alritey, let’s have a break.
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whatsup?!

why do i feel like a mini-version of guy?! the need to learn & understand..  so that i wont commit the same mistakes.

granted. i’m not as righteous as he is. i’m not as stubborn as he is (haha !) but i do like his way of life.

‘i’m very human. thats all i am. all i want to be. a good human’

i know, some might find us kinda bo-liao !
no, i dont see it that way. for, answers made me feel better.

no meaning entry. just unloading tots online.

– happy G.

400th post !

alrite.
the things you dunno abt me.

number #1 – no gift-wrapping.
why bother?
the recipient gotta waste time tearing apart the wrapping papers or waste time guessing (the gift)

can i be noble & say i’m tryin to save the trees?
of coz, i am plain lazy. 😉

jen gave up hopin i will wrap her gifts. haha !

number #2 – no umbrella.
chances are you wont find a umbrella with me.
unless its super heavy rain & i am being force to use the umbrella.

but den, i throw away the umbrella after use.
find it a chore to carry it around.

i choose the easy way out – dump it.

*tsk tsk
i hear your tsk-tsk-tsk.

btw – jen sama sama as me. she will throw away the umbrella too !

– G

awesome !
pumpkin acted on jen’s hint. fulfilled my always-wanted or.. jen gotta take action. when it comes to my always wanted, she’s not one who wait, she’s one who take action.

🙂

sentosa is super packed. even the mrt rides required crowd control.
met some cockroaches along d way. duh ! some pple just have to push their way through. groove goes ‘r-e-l-a-x lah’

i’m one who usually allow the aunties / uncles onto the train, before strollin in and parkin myself at d door. the theory being – you wont die from standing.

anyway.

4D Magix (Pirates) + Cineblast (Extreme Log Ride)
– $30

the maddening que for 4Di think we were in the que for at least 60-80mins.

pple. it sucks to be in a que and you are short. felt like everyone towering over you and the air below is seriously limited.

kept myself occupied by playin 10qns with pumpkin.

came out of the 4D and we both goes.. erm. it was entertainin for the first 10mins, den, it got bored.

next que – cineblast.

i got grumpy den. haha ! no photos. it was rainin and i was bitten by mosquito. lotsa chit chat. observing everyone else grumpy face. haha

the log ride was okie. not as extreme as i tot. sorry, but its not worth the hour-long que.

well. super tiring day.
still feel like crap today but yeap. happy to fulfill my always-wanted.

thank you pumpkin for your patience !
(and dinner / coffee / sending me home )

– groove

wahahah

i be thinking abt it.

men who behave notti / rude / jerks are known as cockroach.

what abt woman?
– witch !

jen & i msging each other at the nail salon. yeap, yeap. funny i noe. well, we cant talk meh. she sittin away from me. so.. sms lor.

anyway, the term ‘witch’ pop into my head.

i could hear jen laughter when she received my sms.
‘.. exactly ! forget it, save monies. i buy u ah lian bee hoon ! yes, the lady super hard sell. she like d nail witch. hmm, man are cockroach, woman shall be named witch’

the witch suppose to be doin my nails instead of pestering pple to sign  package. i wait until abit fed-up and decided not to do my nails.

they might be pretty, they might look like angels, they might be walkin among us.

idiot guide to recognise witch:
woman who dont do your nails, rude woman, gold digger, woman who steal pple’s husband.. are all classify as witch.

may good luck be with you if you are dating a witch. oh. *slap my forehead well, unless you are cockroach.. perfect match!

so, ladies & gentleman, beware of witches. (and cockroach)

– groove

yeap ! christmas stayover !
okie, okie.  i promise this is d last entry on christmas.

she stayed over at my place.
brought her to eat 24hrs bah chor mee, 24hrs ntuc shopping, ate salmon for supper, slp at 4am, shoppin at JP.

nice of jie to volunteer to slp on the floor (sleepin bag) lettin jen have her bed. jie gotta wake up early on christmas day.. church camp.

hehe ! she decided to stay for another night. christmas day.
i went to bed at 1am. leavin her to watch tv by herself.

so les.

tell me abt it.

we went to collect her earring from royal dragon and the auntie asked us ‘you girls are sister? friends?’

‘auntie you guess’ – challenge jen.

auntie looked at me & goes ‘she musta your ah-yi’

barrels of laugh.
i swear everyone in the shop looked at us.
no offence taken. i loved our sense of humor.

no ! i’m her bff !

auntie tot that i’m her aunt, those young ah-yi.
god. do i look that old? sob ! 😉 🙂

auntie gave me instructions to ‘always make her happy’
i will. auntie. i will.

– groove