‘it was possible that a miracle was not something that happened to you, but rather something that didnt’

there have been fun entry, tots entry, lame entry, silly entry, whine entry.. some of these entries are particularly special to me.
this is one of it.

there are many ways to write a blog entry – fun, interesting, silly, anger, happy, sad.. simple & honest this will be. 🙂

– minying

‘afterall this time, it turns out the best way to atone for doing something blatantly wrong is to do something else blatantly right’

the world that i knew of ended.
just like that.
like many others, i though i had it all & it was all i ever wanted.

but it all changed.
a year ago.

lies. lies. lies.
flooded with lies, blinded by love.
i’m a fool.

what could i do?
too many wrongs, too many mistakes.

i need to do something that is right.

i wanted to attack. 
i wanted to run.
i wanted to hide.

i needed the truth.
i needed courage.
i needed to defend myself (at all costs against amy further pain)
i need to be brave (for myself and everyone else around me)

because it’s the right thing to do, there arent many things that are right in this mess, but i have the chance to do one right.
what should i do?

‘life happens, and we just have to face it and choose our path’
it was a haste decision.
yet, i knew.
it was the correct decision.
stand up for yourself – minying.

for myself.
i stood up.
and everyone else came over to my camp.
it was great to feel adored.
camp minying was filled with pple & their endless love, support, care & concern.

lotsa pple didn’t understand the lack of tears.
it hurts.
i had so much pain inside me.
those are the kind of pain i couldn’t speak out loud.
but, i had to remain strong, for pple around me.
they need me to be strong.
falling apart wasnt a option.

‘change your point of view & the perspective is completely different’
seriously.

how do one do that. change your point of view?
chara / background / influence / interest – i am used to being me.

how do one goes abt changing everything?
answer: open up. letting go. re-learn.

i have my flaws, i have my insecurity but i am proud of myself.
think of it this way – i am doin better den what you expect, izzit?
*wicked grin

i dunno about you but i’m learning alot abt myself, life, relationship, friendship, love, fun, adventure. with so much more in life, almost had to murmur a thank you for the second chance

you go, girl !
keep running hard.

be happy, always – groove.