i just decided. i’m not impatience. i just had enough of dealing with ridiculous requests. (school..) no, dont ask. its so ridiculous that i have decided its not worth the whine.

– G

yeap, i mentioned. i read some articles on relationship.

bittersweet 🙁 but great advise.
www.glamour.com/sex-love-life/2010/01/6-love-talks-that-bring-you-closer?currentPage=1

summary:
1. WHAT DID YOU REALLY THINK WHEN YOU FIRST MET?
2. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD?
3. WHAT LITTLE THINGS DO YOU LOVE ABOUT EACH OTHER?
4. WHAT WAS MISSING GROWING UP?
5. WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT EACH OTHER?
6. WHAT ARE YOUR GREATEST FEARS?

– G

*disbelief !

dinner with pumpkin d other day. he had to ot abit & i decided to self-entertain..
surf ard & read articles on r/s. interesting. tryin to understand our male frds.

met pumpkin & share with him some of the stuff i read.

one of the things that came up – touch.

the article stated its a way of letting the guy noe you’re interested in him. and pumpkin AGREED!

pumpkin: its flirting.

what? *blink blink
NO!
disbelief all over my face.

i wailed: but i do that to girls as well.

yes, its my little ‘issue’ .. hmm, had this habit of excitedly grabbing pple’s arm when i wanna share smt fun or interesting. and yes, pumpkin hv told me to ‘tone’ down abit if i’m tokin to a guy & he always told me ‘stop smiling at strangers’ i cant help it too. natural reaction? when someone stare at me, i tend to smile back. provided that person dont look like a cockroach / witch. hehee

– G

me to pumpkin – hey. is there like any place, u really want to go?
pumpkin tot abt it – cruise.

woah. awesome! that’s so nice.
i love cruise. don’t you?

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extracted from my old blog:
tots:

finally. a much-needed break. i am fine. but going away helps. spending time with my family. resting, sittin at the balcony thinkin abt life. peace.

i have everything that i need, it might not be much to some but it enough for me. smile.  

date: 01st – 03th april 2009

where/what: superstar virgo

who: my family + jen

2 balcony rooms

total: 2.5k, 6 person

our first family trip. wonderful memories. check out the photos !

before i hop over to jen’s house.

jie gave me a quick hug “sorry, i was sick but really wanna thank you for the trip ! i had fun.” awww.. tears.

jen msg “thanks for the cruise & giving me a second family”

**awww.. i cant wait for our next trip !

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the previous trip with my family .. i woke up early one of the morning. grab my teddy, tip toe to the balcony, tuck my legs & quietly njoy the moment. the awesome blue blue sea, the white clouds, sound of the waves, gentle wind, the warmth from the sun, lettin my mind run wild with future-tots..

most imptly, the pple i love sleeping in the next rooms..
happy. very very happy. and i noe they are as happy as i am.. happy days.

-G

 “to refuse to be what other people have decided you are — this is an act of courage few individuals dare try. i know i didn’t”

-G

its a point of view.
some would see me as a cold-bitch, others would agree with me.

did smt mean today.
5 of us in a grp, one of the member is infamous for being a freeloader. she dont attend cls,  she dont submit assignment.

anyway, i hv email everyone a brief outline of assignment (2) on monday & stated clearly discussion on wed.
freeloader didnt attend cls today, meaning she missed the discussion.
being nice pple, we decided she will do intro & conclusion. that’s like the easiest part right?

and i went on to state – i want her email by following monday, otherwise we will take her outta the group. she’ll hv 9 days to look for a new team. no worries, i will text her and inform her according.
(and i did ! text her according & ask her to ‘kindly acknowledge this msg, thanks’  duh. previously, she ignored my msg! -_-)

silence.

and they goes – wah, i like your style.

reasons? yes ! here.  1) freeloader is not workin, unlike everyone of us. she hv 4 days to write only 200 words. 2) its time someone taught her responsible. 3) its a grp assignment, everyone hv to contribute.

last. i dont care if she used to work with pple-who-dont-give-a-damn, neither do i care abt how others look at me. i care alot abt deadlines, i care alot abt forkin 1500 and i pretty much care abt myself. if she didnt come back with her part, I, ME will be the one who hv to do her part.

gtg. assignment party to attend.

updates:
alritey ! 😀 the plan seems to work. its monday & she promptly send us her part. happy happy !

– G

ex·ag·ger·ate not.

i really felt a little-outta-the-world after having a slice of rum & cherry cake. oh no. izzit just me? started to feel a little warm, a little heavy breathing and a little heavy head?

that explain why i dont drink.. despite clubbing for years. go figure.

i’m gotta attend cls in this state ! *gasp!
guy said – standby toilet paper. i need plastic bag.

– wobby groove

various examples:

1) man @ orchard
the other day.

shit. i’m late.
grab my stuff and hurry outta office.
only to realised i forgot my wallet -_-

carelessness aside.

i’m late.
and i dislike being late.
walk as fast as my legs would carry me, tinking abt the damn assignment.. rushing home after dinner with jen.

and.
smack right in the middle of orchard road, stood this dude and his cart.
the dude wore make up, stood on his cart .. and yeap. that’s it.
art of standing still.

he simply stood there and .. ? gods noe what he’s thinkin..

and i tot – duh. waste time !! why is he wasting time !
there’s so much to do, so much to see. move move move.

yes, art. yes. thank you.

2) indecisive pumpkin
he: sorry. i’m indecisive when it come to food.
me: its okie.
he: some girls might find me indecisive.
me: i tot its okie, kinda cute? d way he cant make up his mind.  (oh, well i’m mini-pumpkin. smts i dislike leading, just tell me where to go and i’ll be there)

told him its a matter of perspective.

3) perspective.

i went on to inform pumpkin – see it’s a matter of perspective.

the following example is gotta gain “tsk tsk” from pple.. but yeap, my exact words to pumpkin.

for example: look at me. i’m SO fat but u guys don’t think so. ah, see perspecitve.

yeap.. of coz pumpkin replied: NO ! u r not fat !!

hahaha its a woman thing.

– G

“But normal has always felt like a lie to me, a too-tight sweater we force ourselves to wear. Normal has never been too kind to women, to children, or people of color, people mired in poverty, anyone different in any way. Normal is good for no one, really. It is a lie we all decide to believe — after even the most cursory look, no one is actually normal; it is a plastic bag we wrap around our own heads.”

– from an article.