*smile

when had i achieved the status of –
‘talking to minying helps, she knows, she u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d  and she’s gotta help me get thru this’

indeed. at least i tried..

this entry isnt abt me.. its abt my friend, and okieee, a little abt me.
i love happy & fun entry. but, this is d other side of me.

mon morning. busy @ work

a friend msn-ed me. ‘something happened’
impatience me asked: whatsup?

he found out his wife-to-be is married..

WHAT?!

i’m not sure how he found out or whether she is still married or pending divorce .. and i dont intend to ask the poor fellow who’s nursing his broken heart just to satisfy my own curiosity. no, that’s not what he needed me for.

my heart went out to him..

and, my silly friend intend to continue with the r/s, despite his frds’ advise. yes. he loves her. i guess, he wanted to hear my view. but i didnt offer any. its his decision. i dont wish to influence him in any way. but i did told him to reconsider his decision. he dont hv to make up his mind immediately. its sucha big decision that gotta impact him for the rest of his life.

for the record, i felt he shld give up.

anyway..

he’s upset with losing abt 15k. my view: it may seems impt now but it’s not. what’s impt is him..
he’s lost. how is he gotta pull thru? my advise: with family & friends support. i hv faith in him. he would do just fine.

we talked some & ended the msn conversation.

when night falls, i took out my phone.. i’m not close to him, i dunno whether he is still using that number but i decided to drop him a simple sms.. just to let him know pple still care and he is not alone.

for my friend. from a book ..

“when you love someone you got to be prepared to hate too. and sometimes the hate just wins out. but you listen to me. you might have a real good reason to hate somebody, but you still got to let that hate go. coz if you dont, it’ll just tear you apart your whole life. and even worse den tat, it wont leave no room for any love to get back in”

applicable to anger. if he continues to carry all the anger.. he leave no room for happiness..

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*tears*
not for me, but for him.
even though the conversation was conducted over msn, i felt his .. pain.

*space out, for a few moments*

there isnt much anyone could do.
even for me, i would be there for him, listen, give advise, provide support.
its help to hv plenty of support.
but, at the end of the day, he’s d one who going thru hell,
i just hope he could make it back..
.. for, there’re better things waiting for him.

it is my blog and yup, since i’m on this topic..
i am sorta the ‘best-person’ to talk to.

yet i dont deny.. its a little unhealthy and impactful for me.. since i tend to think alot. but, i see it as a test to myself, how far hv i left my past behind and not allowing negative stories to affect me. it helps that pumpkin loves me with his life. okie, too exaggerating. but he cherish this r/s as much as i do..

my friend have a long, dark journey in front of him. its gotta be difficult to crawl outta it but it is possible. i hope, he make it..

i felt, we could never really recover from major heartache.. but we learn to deal with the pain.. resolve and to make peace.
really, holding on to the anger does not help, channel the anger into something positive for himself.

and yes, ur little friend me have been to her personally hell & back. *wink
conclusion? life is indeed sweeter..

thank you family, jen, frds, colls, pumpkin and myself.

– G