Late Sept
I woke up today and i knew i gotta start writing.
Its been a long year.
A year filled with love, hope, faith and happiness.

Anyway, this year was great.
my sadness / fear are gone .. replaced with  awesome-ness !
lotsa lotsa awesome moments !
here are a few:

– countdown 2010
5, 4, 3, 2, 1!
fireworks !
madness! crowds!
chit-chat, windy, watching the sky light up.. lost of words.
its also the day that i accepted pumpkin ! *shy

– intensive classes!
ahhh.. friday exam, sat & sun R&R followed by 2 weeks of intensive class. what the hell !!
i’m whining abt this with a smile on my face ! those were the days ~ ! 🙂

– long long walks with pumpkin
sun, sweat, laughter, talks, jokes, listening to mother nature .. step step step.. skip !

– high tea @ equinox.
the world at ur feet. the food is okie but the view is aweSOME !

– wee family @ spore flyer !
*smile

– cruise with pumpkin.
the drama before boarding, looking at the stars, sitting at our room’s windows, the super-nice breakfast ..

–  zorbing.
hard to book but the roll down the hill is worth every effort.

– mega zip.
have fun girls ! wheeeeee ..

– beef stew @ illuma.
sharing this with pumpkin made me goes… o.O he like stew too? i never tot i would meet someone like that.. amazing !

– hotair balloon.
my god ! i will never forget the feeling, standing in the little basket with jen.
the cool air, dogs barking, pple waving at us, d heat..
the quiet moment, the happy moment, the peaceful moment when i was up there..
thank you jen, for fulfilling a always-wanted

– outdoor concert with pumpkin.
the first time, we sat & the music started.. tears sprang to my eyes.
cant remember the music but i remember the ‘gosh ! this is so nice feeling’

– have-faith.
there are days when i knew everything would work out and happiness is a every-day affair !

– bintan.
walking around the mini-zoo, sitting at the beach @ night, strong strong waves, both of us (jen & me!) looking at the sea..

– pumpkin & keyboard
i want!! i want ! can u play for me?
he finally record a short video of himself playing the keyboard.
*blink blink.. away tears
so touched.

– xmas picnic
a year ago.. pumpkin & i sat at the park, shyly..
a year now.. pumpkin & i sat at the park, happily, njoy each other’s company.

– no more school.
i missed school & assignments !!
the friends, the lessons i learn in and outside of class.
the whole ‘achievement’ feeling.
Proud of myself.
(oh, yes… sacrifice lotsa family,  friends and personal time but i do what i had to do. 🙂

– pumpkin
this year is different in a nicer way coz of him.

a year ago, i asked myself.. who is kervin? what does he want? is he for real? what does he want from me?

a year later, i have my answer.
kervin is a simple person.
he wants  to find someone he love & someone who love him back.
yes, he is for real.
he wants nothing from me.. yet he have plenty to offer.

i like d way he place my needs before him.
i like d way he protect me.
i like d way he encourage me in my studies.
i like d way he place my hands to his heart.
i like d way he look at me & smile.
i like d way he laugh and shake his head at my lame jokes.

its not easy to win me over.
but he did.. with his patience, understanding and gentle kind words.

thank you..

– me
i no longer roam around with a hole in my heart, uncertainties on my back, fear on my face, tears in my eyes.
i got back everything i lost.. no, i got back twice of everything i lost.

nowsdae, i caught a glimpse of my old self.. which is really really nice..

time heals everything.

auld lang syne 2010 .. 2011 .. gotta  double the fun !

be happy, always

– G.R.O.O.V.E