what i want .. at the moment

this has been a place to unburden my tots.
so, yeap. its time to state my ‘stand’ 🙂

no relationship.

yeap, coming from me – its a statement.
jen goes  ‘another surprise fact abt you.. you dont want to be in a relationship? my dear friend you..’
wahaha, she understand me well.

its a chara-tinky here. i do need someone. i’m not all gung-ho and self-declare independent sorta girl *laughin at myself
i’m a softie by nature yet tough when the situation calls for it.
but most would declare me as xiao-nu-ren. duh.

maybe its nice to simply date and know pple.

two reasons:
1) i like to focus on myself, studies, work, family & friends. (not in order!)

for myself, i don’t really need a break per se but it will be good to take a break.
yeap, as a woman, i’m worried. i’m gotta be 28 in a few mths time yet a part of me wants to njoy the ‘freedom’ for awhile. and i have adopt the good-if-there-is-someone-okie-if-there-isnt. life is what you made of it.. haha ! i’m gotta type something here – you don’t need to rely on a man to bring you happiness. see, it a internal struggle for me being soft & strong all at the same time. interrupt by Jen – you just need someone who slay dragons. full stop. haha !

2)  i actually feel stress out and guilty if someone gave me lotsa attention and i cant ‘return’ the same amt of attention… i realised attention gradually leads to pressure which leads to me grabbin my runnin shoes. haha !
actually, the sentence goes – attention – pressure – commitment – responsiblities

no, that not what i wanted at the moment. i guess, the whole idea is to take it slow. as friends – sure. i’m open for dinner, chit-chat, outing, etc etc i’m fine. but pls, no 10 sms per day. *beep, running shoes alert ! haha !

well, this is just my tots. at least for now.
i hv no idea what the future gotta be, i don’t own a crystal ball and my nix name isnt witch.
whatever it is, be happy.

note: out of my 4 rules – be happy. it the most impt of all, isnt? that’s what everyone wanted ultimately – to lead a happy and fulfilling life.

this is probably the reason why i state earlier that i am simply contented with my life now.

thank you for reading. hope you, like me, experience some peace after this entry.

G.

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