the idea came from my colleague CT ! bring him to all the meaningful places ! took her idea and elevated it.

i woke up in the morning, came out from the room and saw this on the dining table.

awww.. what a pleasant surprise !

1st stop: Jurong Point

where we first met.

prepared lotsa little notes for him… took days to scanned through my phone, blog and emails

”he told me.. during reservist, i pluck a morning glory for u, but the weather is so hot.. it died in my pocket..28 March 2011”

2nd stop: Marina Bay Sands

this is where he proposed !

pumpkin heard this on the radio.. ‘‘who would have thought such a small girl would make me feel so big… July 16 2010”

”I love u my brave little solider.. Oct 2014”

3rd stop: Grand Park City Hall

this is where we got married !

”With u, I’m doing so many things I wont do and wont dare to do haha.. Nov 2014”

Happy Anniversary Pumpkin !

– G

my first staycation with jie !

very nice hotel

 separate beds for us! she is a super light sleeper while i snore !

night ! rain very heavily at night

– G

photos time !

for a moment.. we were like ‘what have we gotten ourselves into’ 

the interesting noodles

about 1 hour from airport to Pullman hotel

love the view, busy busy road

check in at about 9pm and head out !

i am in shorts ! felt weird walking around in shorts and sleeveless top. 

SKYE !

dress code: cocktail dress for ladies, collar for men

i started laughing in the lift !! hahaha glad that i left my school shoes at home, i was in converse sneakers. the ladies in the lift are very well-dressed !!!

we cant go into the bar but the restaurant is willing to entertain us !

my first question to vin was ‘are u going to propose?’ the restuarant is really romantic ! awww 

room service !

day 2:

*pout .. there are people smoking in the air con place. the indoor restaurant is divided into smoking and non-smoking.. yeap, like it helps.

walked around the mall den we went to this fanciful Italian restaurant for lunch !

more walking around.. 

tea break 

dinner at a jap restaurant just next door.

i was a little worried about the dinner ! hope it is not too exp ! we dont really understand the menu .. hahah 

a interesting city, fun trip !

– G

i been too busy to blog !

anyway, UG was one of the best event that i help out !

goodie bag

poor colleague,sat the back

me & CT ! we became quite close after this event

look ! so much stuff ! 

rented a van for transportation

hall 16 ! 

the students are so lucky !

here they are !

the next day was a full day of lectures for them, followed by…

social programme: night safari !

the next day, back to lecture ! this is admin desk, full of junk ! haha

social programme: tuas incineration plant ! 

social prgramme: duck tour

social programme: singapore flyer

 tiring 4 days ! but very fun !! i love my job !

– G

very very surprise that he say yes to the impromptu trip ! but i agreed with jen, anyone at that moment would have say yes to me. hahaha

i would like to go to a beach place but the air tickets to Bali are too crazy (budget airline $972 for 2 pax,SIA is $1000). he asked me what do you want more? go to a beach or jump on a plane? ideally, both. But if i have to pick, plane !!

i am madly in love with the idea of injection and to the airport ! how cool is that.

the most awesome thing was, i told him about my plan on thur evening 6.30pm and we really flew off the next day.

2.45pm – doc’s appt

3.45pm – see dr ang

4.25pm – took a cab

4.45pm – reach outram mrt

5.30pm – reach airport

6.30pm flight !

we dont have any plans for this trip and there is seriously nothing to do at jkt !! haha its more of a lets-see-trip.

i couldnt stop smiling the moment i saw jkt, its full of lights..

my dream came true ..to get away from everything.

– G

its been a very good good week!

these few months haven’t been easy. endometriosis is a lifetime thing. the monthly injection is depressing. i have skipped work because of injections, the thought of it scare me.. most of all, i blame myself. i know, i know kervin doesnt blame me but i felt like its my fault.

vin & i had a good talk. actually, we didnt just talk, we cried together. its the first time since the surgery that we cry together, the cysts,the treatment, the vitamins, my guilt, his helplessness.

dinner with my siblings and i told them. jie say i am lucky, we been together for 5 years and its the first time we faced a major problem together. hmmm… i have never thought of that.

we have always been happy together. of coz, we fought over silly issues but we are always okie, we share lots of laughter, adventures, his work, my events, house chore, family, we communicate all the time and we enjoyed each other company. he take care of me and we love each other.

i told jie on wednesday, i should do something crazy to wow kervin back ! haha, technically, he should wow me. but i am better at it! haha, i thought of going bali next weekend, did my homework and all. i told him about it on thursday evening. and we thought, why not this weekend, tomorrow, go home, book tickets, pack my bag and lets go. life is a adventure and lets do something crazy !

that’s how we landed in Jakarta, will blog again 🙂

– G

Ugh ! why do I have to attend baby’s shower?

The thought of seeing a baby, the joy in others, to be reminded of what I couldn’t.. kills me.

I spend 45 mins on a Sunday afternoon in tears.. why do I have to go? I am super happy for her but at the same time, its upsetting for me. I have been quite emo on and off, shit mornings / days to get through.

There are a lot of things I can do, endless possibilities but recently I found out that I have a major flaw..something that I couldnnt. I want to be in control but its not up to me. A lot of people have told me, pregnancy will happen to me someday..

Hope. Scary shit.

I can’t decide.. will I be better off knowing that I cant give birth or to hold on to hope only to be disappointed again.

I have changed coz of endometriosis. I always have a short temper but since receiving the injection, I have learn to control my temper, learn to ask others to gimme 5, to allow the hot flush to happen, to sweat it out and try to control my mood. I have also learn to cherish life, to do whatever I want to do, places to go, things to see and hang out with people that I want to. I still have nightmares about surgery and injections..

I only want one simple thing.. to go for a holiday, I am not like those characters in my book who are brave enough to face their monster. I am not strong enough, yet. I just want to run away from it all. Maybe, after the final injection.

Lets see.

– G

he took me out for a adventure on the last day of my hospitalization leave.

first stop – sengkang punggol wetland

east coast park

cant go for holiday, staycation is the next best thing.

marina mandarin, $350 for 1 night, sob story about me and got upgrade to a higher floor.

lunch – sushi burrito

check in !

 balcony

having fun in the room

dinner – nam nam 

hang out at the balcony and think about life

 woke up in the morning to look at this.. pre-dawn, my fav part of the day

the concerige called and informed there’s a bouquet of flower for me ! awwww from BFF !

i love my mini-break from life 🙂

– G

”make sure you’re not missing out.
seize the day.
what do you care about?
what matters?
pursue that.
forget the rest.”

i been thinking of doing something since i got diagnosed with endometriosis. did i mention that mine is stage 4, stage 1 being the least serious. life shouldnt be about working, it should be living.. fulfilling dreams.

been looking at my list of things to do for a longest time and it seems so hard to fulfill them. i have this urge to fulfill always wanted.. coz its a waiting game, some stupid news gotta hit soon and everything changes.

– G